I reflected on how much I value my life, and what I think its value is. It's a stable life that people would be happy to take, but I think that I could do so much more, more than being able to be in better circumstances, also doing much better with what I currently have. I don't necessarily hate my current life, but if there was something to hate, it would be the lack of relationships with others, especially females. In the POA, I reflected on a recent chance friendship I got by meeting someone on an online platform, which ended in them blocking me, due to reasons I can only heavily speculate. I delved deep into that, on top of many relationships with females that ended with disaster, and I realized that I planted so many stories regarding this, i need to treat females like a different species, need to be nicer, they are more fragile, just a lot of shit that is either completely false...